A Man, Two Mutts, and Some Solitude
:( I know it feels like this sometimes...hell a lot of the time, if you let it eat you up...but I refuse to submit to it. It's a matter of not letting it overwhelm me. About three week ago I felt like what's the use? Why keep struggling when those you love are plucked from your life..it was the same feeling I had two years ago. I finally decided I needed some grief therapy...not medication...but just someone that didn't really know me or have any preconceived judgments about or knowledge of me to talk to...a professional. I think maybe for me, I didn't go into this therapy with any idea it would help, other than hoping it would. And lo and behold, it is..working. Someone confirmed that the losses and things my family had gone through the last two years were really, really shitty and I wasn't overreacting...and I could rage and cry and not worry about it worrying someone or making someone else sad or feel confused. It was therapeutic and cathartic at the same time. It's working for me, for now, and I guess that's the best I can hope for.
Darn it! What I forgot to say about this above is now that I have hope again. And i have to have hope, and I have to be strong because I know how many people count on me to be there for them....Hope is paramount, at least that's what I think.
I feel hopes/dreams are targets, destinations to keep me moving so I don't settle someplace unpleasant. I'm also willing to change the route, or even those targets, when I find better ones.
I like that Bruce...and change, although difficult, is usually needed to keep us moving along. What we thought we wanted or needed changes as we go through Life, so your comment is right on target :)
Rose, this is what happens otherwise.http://stream.pleated-jeans.com/post/18134719595/feel-free-to-fill-in-your-own-my-profession
I would so ride a dinosaur through traffic
LOL...that's too funny Bruce, thanks for sharing that link :) Hey Mike, I bet people would get the hell outta your way if you did :)