The trip yesterday started out very bad and got no better. Lucas did not want to get into the truck, Lillith tried to tear through the fence to save him, I backed into my girlfriend’s car, and they kept Lucas.
All the stuff they said they could get done yesterday they couldn’t so it was either take him back for a night then bring him back today or leave him. I didn’t think he would get back into the truck if I ever got him home again and Lillith wouldn’t put up with another loading experience, I don’t think.
Sometime today we will find out if the lump is due to some sort of cyst around the root of the tooth. If it is they will remove the tooth and patch him up. If it is something other than that they’ll do a biopsy and find out of this is something that is benign or not. If is benign they will take it out of they can. If it is not then we talk about what happens next.
I left Lucas in a stranger place he did not want to go to and I left him with strangers who do not know him and he does not know. I won’t be there when he goes into surgery. I make the wrong decision not to bring him back home. He could have slept on the bed with me last night and woke up loved.
I have no idea how to cover what this is going to cost. I will save Lucas if I can. I won’t let money decide if someone I love lives or dies.
Thank you everyone for your kind words, prayers and good thoughts. I just can’t sit down right now and go through all the online stuff and thank everyone individually but I will when this is all done.